Sometimes you have to sit back and think, “What the heck is going on here?” (Wise words from my 4 yr old nephew) Why did I make those decisions? Is this the kind of person that I always wanted to be with? Am I content with the nonsense because that’s easier than making sense of it?????
I feel like I was so confused that I didn’t realize that making sense of it actually meant NOT trying to make sense of it. I mean, I never reached that ultimate point of clarity…BUT I did have a ray of light shed on some things…Things that I actually knew the whole time but finally became able to accept them. (Don’t you just hate that?!! It’s kinda like telling yourself I told you so…rude!)
I can’t say my heart has been broken, but it definitely was chipped a bit…but that piece already grew back like wolverine…arrggh!!
Who am I to think I know how things are supposed to work out?…It’s more fun to just let the cards fall anyway!
See ya! Wouldn’t wanna be ya!
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I wonder sometimes why things work out the way they do? Why when theres so much good out there people are attracted to what’s bad for them? I wish I could read people’s minds or at least that people spoke their minds instead of always worrying about the consequences. JUST DO IT. I mean, doesn’t it get exhausting always worrying about what people think of you or what’s gonna happen next? I say do what you feel and the rest will fall into place because although some consequences seem bad at the time, they will lead you to the places you needed to be and around people you were supposed to be with. No goal was ever achieved without adversity.
Seriously… think about something bad that’s happened to you and the silver lining that came out of it. Probably would have never happened without that hardship, I think it builds character…I embrace my hardships cause it means I’m doing something right. Nothing worth trying for is easy.
In Conclusion, I refuse to hold myself back. I will NEVER let an idea, thought or notion scare me away from pursuing what I want or getting my dream. I rather punch fear in the face and know that I was bold enough to try and never have to wonder “what if.”
I suggest you do the same. 
Love,
Anosha
Bye.